what's been happening (by rachel)

I work between 34-39 hours a week, when I am lucky. Fortunately, i have done well with my hours lately, but next week I only have 26.5, which kinda stinks. Hopefully I can pick up a shift. Lately people have been upset about their hours. I dont know what it going on. My manager has hired a lot of new people even though other people want more hours.

I finally qualified for my benefits and they will start July 1st. This is the whole reason I took the job in the first place. I feel like it is lame to work at Starbucks, and that I want to have a job that uses my degree. I dont know what I want to do. I got into grad school for the elementary education certificate program. I dont know if I want to do that though, I dont know if I want to teach elementary school or see if I can get a teaching job without that degree. Yeah I dont know what I want to and I am anxious about it. Somedays I dont like being a grownup. There is too much to worry about. Bills, jobs, car, staying in shape, staying healthy.

One of my weekly joys is visiting Joseph. He has begun to say my name (Nonnie) excitedly when he sees me driving up. At church I usually try to find Sarah and Michael and sit with them, but last Sunday I didnt see them so I was a few rows back, when Joseph saw me he yelled my name and and tried to escape to come find me. I was touched that he was so excited about me.